I know what you’re thinking, how can sore be beautiful?
The past few months of my life I have been struggling again going back and forth with my weight issues and eating the right foods. However, I promised myself I wouldn’t be negative, but keep moving forward. I hesitated how much to share on here. I started this blog as accountability, so here it goes. It has been six months since I’ve been off the wagon! I have gained just about every pound back I had lost! (Gasp) I know im heart broken too. I have been prayerfully asking the Lord for strength to keep pushing through and break through this bondage! I understand that results don’t happen over night and that a fit body can’t just be handed to me. I have to work for it. I can’t give up.
I’ve had to sit down and reevaluate my priorities and come up with another battle plan. Just like soldiers have a strategy to fight against their enemies, so do I need a realistic battle plan for my health journey.
Stepping back I see where I’m slipping through the cracks. I started a new job so my schedule is busy and I notice when my life gets busy I tend to go for convienient and fast instead of healthy and taking time to prep.And when you’ve had a long busy day with children on your feet the last thing I want to do is exercise! And I’ve allowed my love for soda to take a driver seat and I realize it doesn’t love my body back. A love hate relationship I like to call it. For me personally I do have a relationship with Jesus Christ and I notice when I allow my flesh to give in to what it wants it creates a barrier between me and the Lord. I do know his loving kindness and grace, but I do also know He desires for me to not have anything have a hold of me except for Him. He doesn’t expect perfection because only He is. And I know when my physical body is out of alignment, it can effect my spiritual life.
On Christmas Day my older brother invited me to crossfit. Now I have been before(it’s tough, but I like the challenge) it had been about 6 months since I’ve had any kind of exercise so I was hesitant! He and my sister in law are very active in crossfit and compete in little comepetions here in town locally. My younger brother and his wife just recently started going to that same Box as them. So I agreed to go to a class where I would have one of the trainers be there with me. I started to feel anxious and nervous and self conscious all at once. As I pulled up I saw my brother there. I didn’t expect him to be there. And then I saw my sister in law walk in and then my other brother and his wife come in. We all got to be in the same class that evening. As we finished our last timed workout I began to feel emotional and had to fight back the tears. My emotions were everywhere. I thought to myself, “how could I let myself get back to this place, how could I just give up.” My legs were so done. When we were finished my siblings and sister in laws came and encouraged me and my heart felt so full and so blessed to have a super awesome support team.
The next morning I woke up and my whole body felt like I had fallen and was bruised! I sat up on my bed and thought wow I never thought I could see beauty in how this pain feels, but it’s a reminder of a fresh start and a new beginning. Sure the soreness will be here for a while and is temporary , but the beauty is that it will only get better from here if I keep on pursuing it. Beauty in the strength God gives me even when I feel weak. I’m thankful for this season. May you see the beauty in any season you find yourself!
Jesus loves you! Have a great week!
“So let us come boldly to the throne of our gracious God. There we will receive his mercy, and we will find grace to help us when we need it most.”
Hebrews 4:16 NLT