Me vs. Me

I enjoy most super hero movies. With every superhero there is a villain. The person who tries to destroy the heroic acts of the hero. They want to see them fail, create obstacles, take away everything that they love, expose their true identity and so on. me-versus-me

I can be my own worst enemy, my own villain in sabotaging myself from succeeding in certain areas of my life. There are a lot of rough areas over the years that God has helped me smooth out and there are current ones He is helping me work on! I believe there are the things in our lives that the enemy strategically plans to try and keep us from being free from the things we struggle with. He would love nothing more than to get us confused about our idenity in Christ and watch us fail.  I also believe that God can bring victory over those plans as well. In those battles our flesh and our spirit are at war with one another. Matthew 26:41 “Keep watch and pray, so that you will not give in to temptation. For the spirit is willing, but the body is weak!”

Growing up  I struggled with different kinds of fear. Wether it was as small as fearing the dark, cacroaches, to fear  of people and what they might think of me(insecurity goes with that), and fear of failing, fear of death, and prob a few others. As I grew in my faith and even now as I grow I see that the more power I give those fears the more they keep me worried, doubting, and afraid to move forward. I don’t know about you, but sometimes my mind can be a mine field. Setting off all kinds of thoughts that can keep me from focusing on Christ and His truths. For years I was so afraid to lose weight because I didn’t want it to change who I was inside, I didn’t just want guys to notice me because I was thinner. So through that fear I allowed myself to stay stuck, to stay in the mindset of being fearful so I didn’t act on making healthier eating choices. Excuses kept coming, but my health was suffering. There is a guy I talked to a few months ago in Crossfit, his health journey is awesome! I remember him sharing his story with me, and I shared some of my fears and the one of being afraid of changing, I explained I didn’t want who I was to change but just to get healthy. And He so sweetly said “Valerie you don’t have to let that change you, you can control that. Have a good balance.” And there so much truth in that. I feel my confidence rising but it’s not so much with being obessed about how good I may be looking, but about how much better my health is getting, the energy I have. My confidence doesn’t come from myself, but in who God is and who He has created me to be. Every person is different. Your struggle may be different than mine, but God has given us the power to overcome them. It’s a process. I don’t want to hold myself back,or be my own enemy anymore!  I want to live in the fullness of Gods joy and embrace all He has! To be fearless and be faithful! To experience all the wonderful and maybe challenging adventures ahead! It’s worth it! One day at a time! 

â—„ 1 Corinthians 10:13 “No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can endure it.”

Jesus loves you so much! Have a great rest of the week! 

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