Growing up, my siblings and I enjoyed watching superhero shows. As we got older and they started making real movies of them we all agreed that Batman was our favorite and in our eyes the best one! Now, calm down before you go and start saying “no way, _________ is way better”, let me just say I respect whoever your fav superhero is even if it’s not Batman! In Batman begins there’s a Part where “why do we fall? So we can learn to pick ourselves back up” is said to Bruce Wayne.” I randomly thought of this quote as I was getting ready to write this blog , and thought it was fitting for this post!
I can hardly believe it has been two years since I have last posted on this blog! I have contemplated over the last few days if I should write again. I find myself at an all time high in my weight. I am not at a place yet where I feel comfortable sharing how much weight I have gained.
I had just come out of a dark season where I once again realized that if I don’t continue to use self control in my eating habits I am going to keep seeing those numbers on the scale rise. It scared me. Yes, I do believe we should love ourselves in the skin we are in. Don’t get me wrong I do love who God has created me to be, and because I do I want to do what I need to, in order to stay healthy! I can honestly look in the mirror and think “girl you are gorgeous”, but I also look in the Mirror and think “girl, you need to take care of yourself.”
I have found how difficult it is to do things I used to do so easily. Like walk up a flight of stairs, bending down to tie my shoe, run after my nieces or nephews, or fit in certain places when I sit down, Feeling like I have to look at the weight capacity for things that sparks anxiety in me,And of course getting into a fight with my jeans to fit! The Jeans almost won. It feels like a Vicious cycle. I understand some might read this and wonder why I just can’t make up my mind and stick with it. I wonder that too. It actually makes me emotional to think I keep going around and around.
I have faced a lot of days this past year in my personal life thinking I couldn’t make it through. One thing I know for sure that even when things seem hopeless, I know I can find hope in Christ. My joy and strength come from Him. Because of Him I can face tomorrow. This is the attitude I want to keep walking in.
I had to ask myself what am I going to do about this? As I thought of this Batman quote ( I know it sounds silly) it made me think that if I don’t pick myself up how easy it would be to remain fallen and never try again. So starting 4 days ago I decided to get back on the wagon with a new perspective and mindset. I have been intentional with my exercising (I definitely have the time right now for it). I have never been so thankful that I can still move my body and have the chance to make a change! So with a sore body and all I stand grateful. I am still working on my eating habits! I can’t promise I won’t fall back off, but I do promise to never stop trying.
What is it in your life that you need to pick yourself back up in?
Jesus loves you much!
Have a great week!